The ringing sound on the phone’s speaker was beating my eardrums like an orchestra!
Being in love with her; having long, senseless conversations with her till late night; despite my ignorance to chords, singing along a song on the phone with her; caring for her; waiting for her; helping her in completing the assignments; smiling at her; just to keep looking at her; it was all so rhythmic!
Those who have ever loved someone, know what it is to be in love! Ask me, and I’ll call it wizardry. Love is the nucleus of power, a source of never ending energy, that drives you crazy. If you can handle the transformation, you’ve got heavens; but if it’s not for you, you’ll burn like hell, slowly, each and every other day, night.
This was the third time I had been trying to call her. Last couple of minutes were wasted waiting her to pick-up the call. One or two tries did not invoke any worries, but with this third one, it was getting serious. Why on earth is she not accepting the call? I was wondering. Is she asleep? But it was too early for her to sleep. It was the time I used to call her.
The over-sophisticated, recorded voice of a lady operator was there at the end of each ring which did not meet her acceptance. Her silence, her absence, it was bothering me now. But it was hard to figure out the reason.
Maybe she was serious when she asked me not to call her anymore! The thought struck me like a lightning bolt. Was she serious? I don’t think she was! My fingers froze for the moment. Thumb ready to redial the number, but was held back, as if waiting for a command to fire. But I had no control of it. Did my not calling her yesterday has seriously angered her? There was only one way to get the answer.
I redialled the number, deciding that this would be my last call for the day. It was better to confront, clarify, rather than fighting with the situation.
The phone was ringing. And after a certain number of rings, it ended.
I was too busy with the rings, hoping to listen to her sweet voice, that I didn’t notice the tears that came out meanwhile and were kind-of frozen on the lower part of my cheeks due to the chilly weather. The call ended, and I found myself sobbing. It was getting serious! Damn it! All this came with a gift of this very thought, I lost her. There was bitterness all around, and it felt like I had a cactus in my throat. I coughed, I cried, I wept, I sobbed. It was dark, the clouds were overcast, on the sky, and my life too, at least then.
I couldn’t stop myself from calling her again, besides knowing that she’s not going to pick it up. I was mad. I had to talk to her, anyhow. I decided to keep trying the number until she picks up the call.
Tries, and tries, and tries.
Then, unexpectedly but yes, the clouds had a silver line. The angelic voice appeared out of the clouds!
“Hello”, she replied.
I had no words.
“I’m so sorry that I could’t accept your call. I was in a friend’s room comleting the assignments. Sorry”, she justified, even though I didn’t ask.
Silence on my side.
“Rahul? Are you there?”, and then she heard something, “Oh my God! Rahul! You are crying!!!”
Though I was unnoticed, but she had heard my sobs.
“Rahul I’m so sorry! Please stop crying, and tell me what happened?”, she was worried.
“Nothing”, I replied, wiping my tears.
“Oh please tell me Rahul! What’s the matter?”, she pleaded.
“Just… thought you were not going to talk to me”, I responded.
“Why won’t I talk to you? You are such a dear friend!”, she said, “What made you think like this?”
“I thought you were serious when you said that you won’t talk to me now onwards”, my tone still sadistic.
“I’m so sorry, I never meant it! I was just teasing you, idiot”, she clarified.
“Really?”, I was not sure.
“Yes, of course”, she tried to calm me down.
“Okay”, the mood was a bit lighter now, “listen, I’ll talk to you in the college”
“Are you sure?”, she asked.
“Yes, pretty much. See you then. Bye, good night”, I said.
“Okay then! Bye, good night”, she replied, waiting for me to say something else. But it was all done.
“Bye”, and I hung up.
Putting the phone in my pocket, I looked up.
The clouds had cleared the sky, and the moon, surrounded by the stars, threw its light on the earth. The coconut tree outside my house shone in its full-glory!